New Year's Goal
We all do it, whether we admit it to others or not. We come into the New Year and we reflect on our life in the previous year. Our accomplishments, failures, milestones, even ourselves as a person. By doing so we make a mental note of the things we would change, the things we would like to accomplish,and of the things that we have learned. Hence the New Year's Resolution.
Most commonly we tend to make these outrageous goals that hold for a week or two, but then give way to our every day live's and routines. But what if we REALLY thought about it? REALLY evaluated our lives and how we could make it better. Took the time to make a reasonable request of ourselves,and not make that push of perfection that ultimately leads to failure.
Well I decided to take some time to think this year. It is my life by way. Something as important as that should take some careful thought. Through my thought process I came across a few things that I would love to change about myself.
I felt that I struggled in a category that most women, mothers feel they do, parenting. With a son with Asperger's, severe ADHD, and ODD I struggle with understanding and patience. I am not always that calm mother with understanding that my son can't and does not get it because well, other 7 year olds do.Yes, I do loose it from time to time. Being that screaming, lunatic mother that when she finally has said and done what she needed to get out of her system,she feels complete remorse and feels as if she has failed her son.
Then there is my Two Year Old daughter who has entered into her twos with full force. Taunting me, pushing the boundaries, and of course the temper tantrums that really should be recorded for blackmail in the future. I feel like because of the demands from my son I lack the patience that I should have for my daughter. But I try. I try to do play dates and fun things with her during the day while my son is at school to give her some sort of "normalcy" in her life.
I also felt like I could be a better wife. Seriously. By the end of the day the last thing I want to do is tend to someone else's needs. I mean after the kids go to bed there is a house to be tidied, laundry to be tended to, the next day's school lunch to be made,dishes to be done, dogs to be fed, and a shower would be nice. So by the time my husband comes home at night I am spent. But I am married so there is this thing I did on that fabulous day, made a vow. That vow was to love,honor,and obey him. So love him I must do when he gets home...this is where I fail.
I just want to take a shower after a long day and zone out reading a book or watching reality tv . I don't want to listen to someone else talk about their day, be sympathetic to their trials, tend to any wounds, and especially be asked any questions. Then there is the issue of marital relations, we know what that means so I won't go into detail. Right now I am pregnant and have been put on light duty by the doctor which means no boom boom. Let's face it though that doesn't "completely" exempt me.
I decided that with being pregnant I wasn't even going to make some sort of health goal. That would just be down-right cruel.
So how can I be better at these things? No, I didn't read a parenting magazine, they just make me feel worse. No I didn't go and Google parenting, Asperger's, or marriage. I didn't go and buy the 5 love languages book and read it from cover to cover. I thought long and hard about what could REALLY help me in these areas. Then it came to me.
I am also lacking in one other area. I am not as great of a Christian as I should be. Yes I do good deeds, I go to church, and I try my best to be kind to others, but let's face it that is what you see on the outside. What about the inside? Don't they always say you can only fix a problem from the inside out, not just slap a coat of paint on it and call it a day. You have to start at the root. So the root it is.
I have decided that God is the only way I can succeed in all of these areas. In order to be a better Christian and know God better I must read his story. I admit, I have never read the Bible. I have listened to others teach on it, but never sat down and read it on my own. If I can learn more about God, then I can learn more about how to be a better mom, wife, and Christian.
So here I go...off to go read some of the Bible before my daughter wakes from her nap. Wish me luck!
Most commonly we tend to make these outrageous goals that hold for a week or two, but then give way to our every day live's and routines. But what if we REALLY thought about it? REALLY evaluated our lives and how we could make it better. Took the time to make a reasonable request of ourselves,and not make that push of perfection that ultimately leads to failure.
Well I decided to take some time to think this year. It is my life by way. Something as important as that should take some careful thought. Through my thought process I came across a few things that I would love to change about myself.
I felt that I struggled in a category that most women, mothers feel they do, parenting. With a son with Asperger's, severe ADHD, and ODD I struggle with understanding and patience. I am not always that calm mother with understanding that my son can't and does not get it because well, other 7 year olds do.Yes, I do loose it from time to time. Being that screaming, lunatic mother that when she finally has said and done what she needed to get out of her system,she feels complete remorse and feels as if she has failed her son.
Then there is my Two Year Old daughter who has entered into her twos with full force. Taunting me, pushing the boundaries, and of course the temper tantrums that really should be recorded for blackmail in the future. I feel like because of the demands from my son I lack the patience that I should have for my daughter. But I try. I try to do play dates and fun things with her during the day while my son is at school to give her some sort of "normalcy" in her life.
I also felt like I could be a better wife. Seriously. By the end of the day the last thing I want to do is tend to someone else's needs. I mean after the kids go to bed there is a house to be tidied, laundry to be tended to, the next day's school lunch to be made,dishes to be done, dogs to be fed, and a shower would be nice. So by the time my husband comes home at night I am spent. But I am married so there is this thing I did on that fabulous day, made a vow. That vow was to love,honor,and obey him. So love him I must do when he gets home...this is where I fail.
I just want to take a shower after a long day and zone out reading a book or watching reality tv . I don't want to listen to someone else talk about their day, be sympathetic to their trials, tend to any wounds, and especially be asked any questions. Then there is the issue of marital relations, we know what that means so I won't go into detail. Right now I am pregnant and have been put on light duty by the doctor which means no boom boom. Let's face it though that doesn't "completely" exempt me.
I decided that with being pregnant I wasn't even going to make some sort of health goal. That would just be down-right cruel.
So how can I be better at these things? No, I didn't read a parenting magazine, they just make me feel worse. No I didn't go and Google parenting, Asperger's, or marriage. I didn't go and buy the 5 love languages book and read it from cover to cover. I thought long and hard about what could REALLY help me in these areas. Then it came to me.
I am also lacking in one other area. I am not as great of a Christian as I should be. Yes I do good deeds, I go to church, and I try my best to be kind to others, but let's face it that is what you see on the outside. What about the inside? Don't they always say you can only fix a problem from the inside out, not just slap a coat of paint on it and call it a day. You have to start at the root. So the root it is.
I have decided that God is the only way I can succeed in all of these areas. In order to be a better Christian and know God better I must read his story. I admit, I have never read the Bible. I have listened to others teach on it, but never sat down and read it on my own. If I can learn more about God, then I can learn more about how to be a better mom, wife, and Christian.
So here I go...off to go read some of the Bible before my daughter wakes from her nap. Wish me luck!
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